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This is what happens to people when they keep their chin up....eventually they succeed at stuff....

Friday, August 28, 2009

New Semester...

Sitting in a cute little coffee house in Klamath Falls called Mateos to get access to the internet to do my Algebra and English assignments. At the hotel the other night I got a posting in on Poli Sci 5 so I can't worry about that one much...I was the first class posting so I couldn't comment on another's statement (as is customary for an on line class)...I can wait for that until after our hookup is complete on September 2....in the meantime it is the little things which are my maintstays...the placing books on a shelf and freeing up another box...watching Spencer race the occassional car n the street to the end of the quiet block. There are more pelicans here then in the Santa Cruz beach I was just camping at...and today was our first sighting of clouds here in the shadow of Mount Shasta.

I am very stressed about not devoting hours to schoolwork at the start of this semester but....I love the much slower pace here in Oregon...

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

BackHome...

This year I learned that "back home" is not what I thought it was....I generally don't move much and I don't like the idea of picking up my stuff and going anywhere with ALL OF IT!!....but now I am realizing that "home" is where Spencer and Manny and I are....not where my "things" are...I seem to be slowly realizing that my Big Kids and my Ex will visit me wherever I am...and I can visit them and my sisters and parents as well...but "home" has very little to do with my "things"...

I think I am ready to move abroad and explore now that I have learned this crucial secret...

Java Junction....

Sitting next to Manny in JavaJunction in Santa Cruz, CA. Found a storage unit since our moving the last few bits of our stuff was going to cost a fortune....EVERYBODY is moving this week here in the Land of Many Colleges...already behind on someofmy assignments for class in myover zealous mind!

Spent yesterday with the family and truly enjoyed the closeness...had to get some schoolstuff done and went to the Boardwalk....it was so much fun just being together...dogs were even walked for a long time on the beach at Aptos and the Cement Ship Beach...

Hope to begone tomorrow and at least headed back to Oregon so we can get going on life there...

Monday, August 24, 2009

First Day of College, Again...

Here it is Fall and I find mysefl starting a new semester again. This time I don't carry all the insecurities I did last Fall. At this time last year I had challenged two History courses through CLEP tests and acquired 6 units for my efforts but wondered whether I was up to the challenge of being in college again.

Now I am an old Pro in every sense of the word.

I know how to get my own library card and access the info I need. I am happily walking a campus I know in detail and yet, I am not staying. I am enrolled here full time and I have already done work for each of my classes, but I am not going to be here expect for the exams I have to take in Algebra class....

Next I am off to check on the cost of my Masterpieces in Literature textbook....and the other miscelaneous items I need for my courses, but otherwise I am planning on playing with my family while here...8 hours away from a cozy home and new life in Oregon.

I was given two delightful books last night and I found myself accessing them perpetually today as I drove about doing my early morning errands.

I started my camping day off by getting my dogs and walking down to the beach. I shimmied off my Monterey Peninsula College sweats, and jumped into the ocean asking for cleansing...of all my insecurities and fears.

The funny thing is that I felt "cleansed" of my insecurities and fears!! I ran down the beach and found that the really drop dead gorgeous guy on the beach walking casually towards me was my own personal hottie....

Life is full of reasons to be afraid and thankful.

I am lucky that this morning I was able to see, feel and know...that I was feeling appreciative instead.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Gardening...

Gardening at the new house started today...we got a hose and watered the lawn...

We are also trying to set up curtains...I plan on sewing some today...did laundry at a laundromat today!! Ate at a grocery store...yum...

We are getting our library cards offical. I also used the interent to "meet" my MPC instructors for Fall...English Lit and Shakespeare...here I come...

Haven't found where to sign Spencer up for school yet...

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

New House!

So here I am living in Oregon since a couple of days ago...won't have my internet turned on for a bit and have to admit I am loving the silence!! I think though I am seriously addicted to answering my emails since I feel so strange without checking them daily!

I find myself happily scrubbing a creeky lovely old Victorian...next door to a graveyad and a view of all of town!!! Could life get any more interesting?!

We have been putting up pics and cleaning all the old messes but I love watching my son go outside and play with kids from the neighborhood on his bike and BE completely safe....

He has already made friends!! I think Brittleby (Happy Birthday my Pumpkin!!) and Harry James would have loved this house since there is the sound of kids EVERYWHERE and they are all nice!!

But what is nice is how sweet it is to be here with Spencer and Manny...Manny is a blast!! We have been cleaning up things and moving things and generally scrubbing things...

We went to see the house we moved into get auctioned off after many different negotiations with Bof A fell through...

No one showed. I had already told Manny that no investor in his right mind is going to these things anymore since the banks aren't even allowing a good deal...Bof A kept trying to get more cash out of us...but I feel that it is a better deal to simply take our money to a lawyer...

When I paid out money on my house I lost last year all the money I put out disappeared!!!

I helped many others and found they all had the same thing happen...money disappears in that tactic...it doesn't go toward debt or towards helping...it simply goes away! My mortgage co couldn't even figure out which branch had it...

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Today our stuff is mostly going to be OUT....

Eeeeekk! Today is the day to literally move out. I know this abotu moving....no matter how hard you try there seems to always be another box to pack....and here we are....the day to move stuff into the truck...and I had trouble sleeping...and figuring out details...yet the details usually iron themselves out and I know the illusion is that I ever truly control "the plan" whatever that is....

Everything is in dissarray...stuff all over...yet there is symmetry in this experience...an odd sort of peace...I am not at all sure as to why...I guess it will make more sense later when I am not in the middle of it all....

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Moving....

I am enjoying the adventure and also feeling butterflies of fear as we pack eveyrthing we own up to move away from the Monterey area in California. It is funny how you really learn alot about yourself as you box up your life. My craft boxes are amazing...tons of stuff to make thigns with...what Imake is as mindboggling as I am...no wonder Manny looks slightly confused....

We took an hour or so to enjoy the beach with the dogs one last time.....Spencer had to swim with his jeans on.....and he dove inand out of the waves like a pro....and the pelicans seemed to be flocking today....after e had finished up some last paperwork for our next semester here in Monterey's Peninsula College. Another heavy semester...but this 16 units all but guarantees me entry into a Big College and also my degree from this one...

Manny found his union has lots of options to help...pretty cool...when I lost my home I didn't have any Union Bros to back me up at all....If you are in the same boat...check with any Unions you might have available....

And I feel scared and excited all at once....I am either lucky or excited....liek an amusement park ride....AAAAaaaaahhhhh!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Foreclosure and Move!!

Well, we knew we could not afford to stay here but we were not clear as to what avenue to pursue...until we visited the town that Manny has his spare house. When we went to check on it...his "investment house" turned into our best case scenario....so we opted for trying to negotiate with BofA that holds the loan on it. We have not been able to keep up payments and found ourselves on the foreclosure listings.

We had a month and a half to get into talks with a big company like Bof A and yet no one answered their phone for a week...the people we did talk to after long periods on hold...tried to sidestep the loan now insisting we talk to the Conveyance Company that was in charge of its auction in mid August.

We turned in the packet of papers they requested to prove we were legitimate in our quest to "keep" the house. It was weeks before we received the "said" packet of paperwork from BofA and yet when we did receive it we returned it the next business day after it was received (in the morning) and yet they still sat on it for a couple of weeks...

Now when it was getting too close to auction and we were moving in as we had said changing it to a "primary residence" instead of an "investment property." And still no response or help from Bof A.

So we contacted the local HUD people to help us negotiate with our mortgage people at Bof A. We also confirmed that we can declare bankruptcy to keep the house. And we found out that Manny's union from his job would also help us by going to bat with the Bof A people.

We also confirmed with a lawyer friend that in order to keep what was an investment property, one must move in completely and make sure the mortgage company knows it is your primary residence.

So now we are moving...just decided two days ago to rent the truck...started packing yesterday and we pickup the truck on Thursday....
Wish us luck and hope this helps anyone out there with a similar situation....

Monday, August 10, 2009

The Move is On....

OK, we have the kindest landlords in the world but the fact is that we can't afford to be in our house any longer without dragging down the ones who have allowed us to be here so long...So I am psyched and jazzed about moving into Manny's other home and turn that into our primary residence ASAP. Booked a truck and started seriously packing today. Cleaned out half the garage, (and did a dump run-wait learned it isn't a dump run anymore...we escorted our trash and rejected items from the Goodwill to the waste management facility).....sort of took our trash for a tour to Goodwill first-old toys and toddler bed weren't accepted there today, then drove the stuff over to "the facility"....isn't life interesting?

And now the race is on....we are checking out details for school here...since I am enrolled full time in Monterey Peninsula College through the Fall.

And Spencer and I started emailing a new Waldorf Homeschooled penpal in faraway Phoenix.....there is always something new if you are open to it....

Sunday, August 9, 2009

An Assessment

Manny, Spencer and I are still living in Salinas this week....but we are moving soon..can't afford Salinas much longer. I am finishing up my last semester at Monterey Peninsula College but most of my last classes are on line hence the move. A year ago I lost my house in foreclosure and I have lived more in this last year then I probably ever have. I have had more romance, more intrigue, more adventure and more growth then all my other years put together. It's funny how something so bad can turn out so good...

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Kickin' back and playin' cards....

Sometimes being poor has its sweet victories. When I had money I was always busy. But now that I don't have as much....I feel like I have time for the little things I never have time for...like playing cards. Tonight, Manny and Spencer, and Gordon (my Ex Hubby) and I played cards. Being poor means not going out to a movie but instead staying at home and playing a game.

And in a race with 3 of us on one side and only Manny on the other...Manny was beating us....un til this hand...and all of a sudden I have mysteriously pulled ahead....go figure!!

Whether wealthy of poor, may you have time to play cards and kick back.
This You Tube bit on Abraham Hicks is today's meditation for getting into alignment with my desires.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hpKboPsmmI

Woohoo, I found a piece of paper that was a bit of what I wanted in a man. And Manny fits it almost completely.

"A handsome man on my arm who spots me first and feels good from moment one. He looks good with his cuffs rolled up one. His smile melts me.

He also is a good family man. I can lay my head on my chest and feel good." -written about 2 months before Manny showed up in my life.

Morning Meditation

Call it what you will but I am making a point of getting in time this morning for my morning meditations and focus or prayer or whatever. I used to take an hour every morning for these things for decades yet down here going to college I haven't done much at all in that department. Today I thought I would start with a You Tube mind movie that focused on happiness and serenity. I am lighting a candle and a stick of incense and I have sweats on. Next, I will do my "salute to the sun" yoga, just three, and also relax my overly thinking mind.
When I have allowed myself that time to relax I will then sit quietly and do nothing but believe there are answers to all of my problems desperately trying to reach me if I would only sit down and be quiet for a bit to feel them. Sometimes the most incredible inspirations would hit me when "I would do this simple task in the mornings.
In the Jewish culture it was understood that the first fruits from the harvest belonged to God. Now I am not big on trying to define what a God Thing is but I figure this ancient wisdom is not a waste of time when it comes to feeling appreciation and acknowledgement that all comes from a greater source then just me. I acknowledge whatever the heck it is with my quiet this morning.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Airshow!!







What a spine chilling show!! It was a thrill to be so close to such fast and maneuverable flying machines. WOW! And the Transformer Robosaurus was incredible!! It really did transform into a trailer when going from show to show and it angrily grew to full size like Godzilla and "ate" a car!!






And I got to play co-pilot while Spencer flew a cargo plane, and we got to watch some amazing stuff as all the different kinds of planes did fancy rolls and loopdeloops overhead. WOW!!

Cannery Row




Last night and tonight were a blast!




I have had alot of tension lately what with fresh new changes afoot and it was such a wonderful relief to have a great night playing tourist in Monterey where I have been busy being a student so much of the time this last year! But the company made it so much fun...we hung around with Melissa and Jim and we really enjoyed their company. Spencer and I also got to do the aquarium with other kids (a girl who does not like being called "Ollie" and Lilly. We also had a splendid dinner as well as seeing The Sharks at the Imax in 3D. A Cousteau movie narrated without the French accent but an English one instead. And no violence...well, one mating sequence of sharks seemed kind of violent but that was a far cry from the docmentaries of my childhood.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

What a fun day!!!

Had a blast!! We went to the Monterey Aquarium. What a lot of fun!! We hung out with a family we haven't before and found out they were alot of fun!! Melissa wanted to go to the Imax Theater and watch a shark movie in 3D and it was a great idea... WOW...and documentaries aren't violent like they were when I was a kid....and the Cousteau movie was narrated by an Englsh accent instead of a french one...it was kind of a new twist on an old favorite. I wanted to reach out and touch the jellyfish that popped off the screen due to the effects...

The Monterey Aquarium

Yahoo, it looks like I might get to go back to the aquarium!! I love the aquarium...so relaxing...all that water...and blue light and glass and swimmy things!

And in Salinas, we have jets practicing overhead for the show tomorrow! A freebie for me!

Anniversary date....

Yesterday...was the day that Gordon and I got married and created a family. What a success! Life turned out alot different then our plan BUT OMGosh!!What a beautiful life we have had! We are all close, children, Gordon, now Manny and I. I consider it to be a win/win in every imaginable way.
Thank You Gordon for giving me our children, making me a mother and teaching me how to love another person so completely and unconditionally. You deserve my devotion since you are, and always have been, such a wonderful person. I know we are no longer married and definitely not husband and wife BUT I promise you my devotion until we die and beyond. Just as I did all those years ago, (I got that wrong on Facebook.... I will always love you.
I hope you feel that.
Here.
Now.
Always.

Gearing Up For Change...

The fresh rain this morning was awesome. We coupled it with a morning meditation. Well, I stood outside in the rain in my bathing suit and just soaked it up, (it was a bit chilly) while Spencer messed with his Facebook. I coaxed Manny into joining me and he stood in the rain for a bit but eventually relented and wanted to go inside where it was far warmer.

Anyway when we did our real meditation, a you tube Enya song, all 3 of us quieted down and went to a more peaceful place. Manny closed his eyes. I started writing in my journal and Spencer drew a picture of teepees and city buildings in NYC.

I sense a whole new way of life is about to unfold. A good one, I think.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Studies in college life

It is funny what I am studying and it makes sense. Back in 1981, I wanted to learn foreign languages and move to Monterey to go to the Monterey Institute. So I went back to the orignal plan last summer when I went back to school.

Now I am done with my first full year and I studied french (blech, crazy teacher at MPC), Italian and Chinese (both incredibly awesome instructors!!) and Linguistics which made me feel like I want to become a Linguist. I also found a great teacher of Arabic to get me going in that direction. My Chinese and Italian are pretty much my mainstays but during the winter break I also taught myself to read Greek (it was like breaking a code). I have decided that I want to go to Europe for a couple of years to study Italian and Greek in those countries but before I go I need to get pretty proficient. I really hope I can get into a university there for a year learning in that language on campus.

Hopefully I will get to follow through on that one.

Creating a Blog....

I already did the blog thing a couple of years ago and it got lost in my foreclosure. I am excited that this has gotten much easier since I did it last and much cheaper. And when I loaded the ads last time it took forever. Now if I get interested parties I might actually make money as well.
Wish me luck.

My Wild Ride of a Life....

Every day gets better. I don't know how, when my income is unclear and uncertainty is all I really have, I have to really admit I am really happy.
I am signed up for Fall classes and it is a full schedule.
I am gearing up for a move to a cheaper and quieter life. And I am with my son and Manny who always bring me happiness.
Life is good.